setelah lama ditinggalkan. ada kata yang harus terucapkan. tentang perasaan yang benci dikatakan untuk sebuah frasa bernama pernikahan.
aku harus memahami ..
bahwa umur lebih dekat dengan kubur..
bahwa jiwa hanya untuk harta dunia..
bahwa hati sudah tidak bisa lagi sepi..
tapi terlalu banyak syukur yang sering diingkari oleh kufur..
sehingga aku sudah tidak tau lagi harus bagaimana caranya mengukur..
mengukur diri dengan siapa aku harus habiskan semu..
yang aku tau.. dari sejak dahulu.. doa ku tak pernah luput dari nama mu,,
tapi terlalu banyak takut yang berkelabut..
karena restu tidak semudah menyundut semut..
konon katanya .. menikah itu menyatukan dua keluarga ..
tapi bukan salah iman yang tak sama .. hanya pengakuan yang tak diterima ..
sementara sang raja belum berkata-kata apa-apa.. maka aku bisa apa ..
hanya bisa bermimpi kalau ini hanya sekeping hati yang hampir mati karena ulahku sendiri.
meng-ingin-i.. tanpa berpikir dua kali .. sungguh .. tak ada kata sesal dihati untuk mencintai mu sampai nanti ..
namun jika benar Tuhan sudah menggariskan takdir setiap hamba, seharusnya tidak ada lagi perasaan duka.. merasa kecewa .. dan terluka .. yang ada hanya aku dan kamu bahagia ..
aah ! aku ingin menangis saja dipelukan ibunda.
Monday, November 28, 2016
Saturday, December 20, 2014
When I am Thinking of Marriage ....
Most people get
married believing a myth that marriage is beautiful box full of all the things
they have longed for. The truth is that marriage at the start is an empty box.
We must put something in before we can take anything out. There is no love in
marriage. Love is in people and people put love in marriage. There is also no
romance in marriage. We have to infuse it into our marriage. We must learn the
art and form of habit of giving, loving, serving, praising keeping the box
full.
I always imagine
that the bride and groom look like stars in their own movie and the soft
background music gives all of it the feel of a fairy tale. It’s beautiful and
romantic, but it’s not reality ! Unfortunately, many young adults think of
married life as one grand, thrilling moment after another – the everyday. Marriage is much
more than a wedding ceremony. A wedding is an event but a marriage is a state
of being. It’s not a one-time act ! it’s a lifelong commitment to be developed
and maintained. We need to leave behind the giddy notion that marriage is a
game in which being a cute couple matters
the most.
In Islam, marriage
is a blessed contract between a man & a woman, in which each becomes
“permitted” to the other, and they begin the long journey of life in a spirit
of love, co-operation, harmony and tolerance, where each feels at ease with the
other, and finds happiness and comfort in the heart of the
other. The word Love in
the Qur'an appears on over 90 places but interestingly it doesn’t define the
word love but speaks about the very first consequence of love “committing”.
Islam talks about “commitment”. "If you truly love, then commit, if you do not
commit, the your claim of love is not real." That's what I heard.
In reality, I don't see at myself to marry at an early age. I am afraid to get married with someone who I don't love. I have searched the Internet looking for information on Gamophobia, which is a fear of marriage, marriage fear, marriage phobia, fear of commitment, commitment fear, or commitment phobia. Sometimes, I have extreme anxiety if someone talks about it. but, it doesn't seem I will not marry. I just do not find someone who can handle it for me.
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
A Year Without Rain
Can
you feel me
When I think about you?
With every breath I take
Every minute
No matter what I do
My world is an empty place
Like I've been wandering the desert
For a thousand days
Don't know if it's a mirage
But I always see your face, baby
I'm
missing you so much
Can't help it, I'm in love
A day without you
is like a year without rain
I need you by my side
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you
is like a year without rain.
The
stars are burning
I hear your voice in my mind
Can't you hear me calling?
My heart is yearning
Like the ocean that's running dry
Catch me, I'm falling.
It's like the ground is crumbling
underneath my feet
Won't you save me?
There's gonna be a monsoon when you get back to me, baby
So let this drought come to an end
And make this desert flower again
I need you here
I can't explain
But a day without you
Is like a year without rain
It's a world of wonder with you in my life
So hurry, baby, don't waste no more time
I need you here, I can't explain
But a day without you is like a year without rain, ai.. :""")
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