I
haven’t done much writing lately, but so many questions and feeling that I have.
What
is it about someone that makes another person let them into their life, even
when their logical brain is telling them to watch out? Why do some (rare) people
seem to possess that magical quality that makes you fall head over heels, flat
on your face, and stupidly ignore all internal warning bells until further
notice? How can you turn it off? How can people that SEEM right for you not be
the ones that grab your heart, while the one that CLEARLY isn’t is the one that
you stop everything for?
And
how can I still feel so much? When I know he don’t feel at all. How can I still
cry like it happened just the night before?
I wish
there was a way to turn my feelings off. Get rid of my emotions. I need to hide
my heart. It’s a simple notion. When I meet his eyes and enter past the sheath
of attraction
He
sees me. :)
For me
and cups my flaws.
In his
willingness to love me.
Anyway..
He's
that guy.
Finally...
ahahaha
I fall
in love with broken souls, and bent perspectives,
Every
time I see the sunset during my breaks
it
makes me smile because today I have something to live for.
I fall
in love with doubt, and infrequency,
Every
time I see the way he move so softly.
The
Moments I knew I was falling for him.
And I
am like Cinderella.
I fall
in love. I was prepared to give him everything. I dressed myself up, made me
beautiful, did it all. I let myself fall in love too quickly. And like
Cinderella, I have an expiration date. I only have so long before I will fall
apart. I can’t wait forever for an answer. I just can’t ... I just can't to
wait the right time until I am ready to the thing called "marriage" :')
